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Things that make me ping are love, women, classical music, good writings, unique ideas, childlike innocence, fair play, beauty...and this blog is about these lovely things...

Saturday, February 04, 2006

Hi Mo


Hi Mo,

It's been a bit busy the last few days, running errands and meeting old classmates, but that's not an excuse for not writing earlier. The fact is I have been thinking of you almost every minute of every hour, often even while I was in the middle of a conversation or on my way between destinations. In my experience, this is a sign of being in love. But in love with whom? I only know of you through your e-mails and the pictures you've taken of the flowers. This is the first time I have ever been fascinated by someone without a face. Romantic love involves a lot of imagination, and I don't know whether my faceless object of love is hampering or heightening my imagination of you. I've found myself intrigued by this experience of mine. On one hand, I have been enjoying the feeling of falling in love, literally blindly, and observing my reaction in dealing with it; while on the other hand, I have been struggling with the decision of writing you or not, and if so, on soups only, or about my true feelings towards you...oh, do I dare to force the moment to its crisis? Mo, this is the reason why I have not written earlier. I'm afraid by forcing it I may break it. Now that I've bared my feelings, I am at your mercy.

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My love--the version in Chinese


我是一個大事冷靜,小事衝動;愛靜,久了又不耐寂寞;想中六合彩頭獎,卻不貪便宜;好讀書,而不求甚解;渴望有一個可以執手終老的伴侶,又先後跟愛的人分手...還有的是,嗜聽古典音樂、行山、與三五知己談天;不煙不酒,不愛應酬;至於女人,當然是愛的。

戀愛是人生最美麗、最精緻、最激蕩的經驗;可惜的是,這經驗不能天長地久。最近才知道,人對所有的疼愛,都會在一段時候之後,自然終止,而這是人的生理構造的自然反應,跟個性道德,通通無關。 我未見過一對結了五年婚之後仍然快樂幸福的夫妻。人前人後是兩副臉孔的,比比皆是。

因為愛情是這樣美麗精緻,所以我追求之,珍惜之。同樣,我認為人生的目的是求快樂,如果兩個人在一起不再快樂,那便應在發酵到怨懟之前,和氣分手。

但我仍然期望可以找到例外,找到一個可以終老一生的愛人。